My baby bump

I took this pic for my scrapbook page that I am copying out of a magazine. I think it turned out pretty good, althought I think it makes me look a lot bigger than I am. I will post the page when I do it.

Daddy's addition to the spree....

Now aren't these so adorable? Nick was so funny about it, and he will "hate" me telling the story again but here it goes. We went to the baby section where I was picking up all the purple stuff. He began going on about how there aren't any cool girl clothes, meaning no superhero ones. So we get to the baby shoes and he picks these out telling me that he's going to tell Kara that while all I bought her was some stupid clothes, her daddy bought her some cool shoes. He's so silly that man! But they are sweet aren't they?

My shopping spree!!

Well as you all know my favorite color is PURPLE so therefore my little girl has to have purple clothes, shoes, blankets, hair bows, EVERYTHING!!! Luckily the BX had a whole rack dedicated to purple in my favorite baby brand, Carter's. So after we found out I had to go get all they had. I tried to play it smart by getting all different sizes from newborn up to 9 months. She has to have purple clothes at every size she reaches. Here is the lovely stuff I found:









This last outfit is my favorite. I found it today when I just had to scan the baby clothes one more time. I think it is so sweet, the I love daddy part. Now isn't that just adorable? I couldn't resist!

My appointment.....

so as you may have read below, It's a Girl, well she was 90% sure of it anyway. So imagine me popping out a boy and having to put him in purple. I have this fear now, but since there were no visible signs of boy parts, I think we will be okay. I will admit I was kind of surprised, I had got myself to believe it was going to be a boy for some reason. Although I didn't tell anyone because I didn't want to jinx myself, but I guess I did anyway somehow. Really all that mattered to me was having a healthy baby and so far that's what I've got. I can't tell you how relieved I was to see that I had fluid and that everything is looking great for the baby. She said that the brain and kidneys look good. The heartbeat was around 150 so that was great too. However, she's measuring big by a week. I don't know if that means I will have her earlier or if she's just going to be a chunky little baby. According to the doc she weighs 6 ounces. So we will see. Today I am thankful for modern technology like ultrasounds. How nice they are to have!!! My next appointment is December 27th, hopefully then I will get a definite on the baby being a girl. I was so hoping for that guarantee, which I guess most people don't get but hey I was hoping. I unfortunately didn't get a pic of her parts but got this nice one of her head, body, and spine. Thank you all who voted in my poll, but it seems that while the majority voted boy, we have a girl on the way. She will be named Kara Elizabeth, which yes is Supergirl's name. You know Nick has to have a Comic name in there somewhere, LOL. I have another appointment tomorrow with Bozo and I get to get some blood drawn, you can't imagine how thrilled I am about this. NOT!! Oh well, such is life. Happy blogging!

What am I???

So I am copying everyone else in the seach of what Christmas things I am. It seems I am a tradional tree with my own set traditions. So true for me, althought I would like to make some new ones with my baby girl that's on the way!! And I am just like my mother in law and Aunt Sandi, a flashy trashy Christmas Sweater, yes that is me! Ha that was so much fun!

You Are a Traditional Christmas Tree

For a good Christmas, you don't have to re-invent the wheel.You already have traditions, foods, and special things you bring out every year.

What Christmas Tree Are You?

You Are a Christmas Sweater!

Over the top, colorful, and totally flashy.You're not afraid to be a little tacky.

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If you want to play just click on the link and find out which one you are!!!

It's a girl!

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My apple pie pic

So here it is my apple pie that was so very yummy. I would share the recipe but it's down stairs and I find myself feeling lazy right now. I will have to post it soon. Since I am behind on my thankful list I will update myself:

November 23rd: I am thankful for rest. For being able to take a nap or just lay down in the middle of the day.

November 24th: I am thankful for running water and electricity. We are such a spoiled generation. We have no idea of the hardships people used to have to endure.

November 25th: Today I am thankful for emotions both good and bad, because without them life would be a lot harder. I think having emotions make us feel better. What if you couldn't sit down and cry when you've had a hard day? It would feel awful. What if you couldn't laugh when something was funny? For these things I am thankful.

Weekend update!

So this weekend, while it was nice with the holiday, has dragged on for me because I have been so anxious to find out the sex of the baby, can't wait!! We find out tomorrow around 11:30 am, YEAH! So anyway, we had a pretty nice weekend. We went bowling one day, where I won two games over Maddy and Nick. What can I say I have that talent. LOL. I did a little Christmas shopping with all the sales, which to be honest weren't that great, but I managed to get a few good deals. We watched a lot of Christmas movies, which of course made me so happy. We were supposed to watch One Magic Christmas (one of my favorites) tonight but somehow Nick weaseled his way out of it. BRAT! He says he thinks it's a dumb movie, but I know he likes it deep down somewhere. He said the same about "It's a Wonderful Life", but had me start watching it over from the beginning so he could know what was going on. I guess guys don't like to admit to liking those kind of movies. They are silly. I had my Christmas card workshop last night, which went okay. I enjoyed talking with all the girls. I only sold 4 extra card sets, but I was glad to. Everyone had a really good time. They are all anxious to see the new book that comes out January 1st. They all plan on making orders, so that made my night. I also have another party booked for January so that's pretty cool. Oh and I forgot to tell you that my party I had last week closed with $450 worth of orders. I was pretty happy about it. So anyway, today we went and watched Fred Claus. Oh my goodness it was WONDERFUL. It was both funny and sappy. I cried during one part and laughed my head off in others. It's one of those movies I will HAVE to buy when it comes out. You need to see it if you haven't. I enjoyed it so much! I hope you all had a nice holiday weekend as well.

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! We had a pretty nice one. I started the day cooking and listening to my Christmas music because it always makes me happy. We went to our friends house to eat, where they fried a turkey. It was burnt on the outside and not all the way cooked in the inside, but hey it was funny. Luckily the white meat(we don't eat dark meat) was done so we were happy. We had a nice dinner and then played games. Nick and I were on a team and we won every game we played, so of course Nick was so excited. He tends to brag a lot when he wins. Crazy man! But overall it was a nice day. I will be posting a pics of my apple pie soon, it was extra beautiful this year. Today I am so thankful for family. Though we weren't with our family (besides each other) I thought of everyone and missed them. I feel thankful for my ENTIRE family. Sure sometimes we don't get a long or get on each others nerves, but overall we are always there for each other, which is how a true family should be. I love and miss you all. Hope you have a great day!!! Oh and yeah as you can see my belly's growing quite fast these days. LOL

Beautiful ending to a sad day

As you may have read it was my son's birthday yesterday. So, of course I was sad and depressed. But I felt a little better when we decided to do the celebrating part of the day. We have made a tradition of having a cake and sending balloons with letters that we plan on doing every year. This year I made cup cakes because I had found some superman cupcake holders and toppings that were really cute. So I made those with the funfetti cake because it has little yellow, red, and blue bits in it. Next, we went and got the balloons blown up and found another balloon to add to the three we had. They had a superman one that said, "Happy Birthday" on it. I was very excited to get it. It had been a cloudy day, so I was kind of bummed that the pictures wouldn't come out too great, but something amazing happened. We went down to the marina to let them go and the clouds opened up and the sun shined so bright. It was beautiful. Then as soon as the balloons were almost out of sight the clouds starting closing back in. I truly feel that it was some kind of sign saying Conner was getting the balloons we sent him. It was a very sad but tender moment for us all as tears ran down our faces. So today I have to say I am thankful for things that bring warmth, weather it's a hug from a loved one, a nice cozy fire, a smile, or just the sun shining down at the right time.

Ready for Thanksgiving!

So before I took my Fall tree down, to make it a Christmas tree, I had to get some pictures. I think they came out really cute. And my scarecrow, isn't he adorable? Maddy of course didn't want to take the pictures at first and then she got all into it. She's a good little model don't you think?

Memories....

that was what I was thankful for yesterday on my son's second birthday. For without memories I wouldn't have much of him but some pictures, his footprints, and a lock of his hair. I remember his little kicks every night at midnight, his hiccups every morning at 10am, and the tickle of his little fingers. I remember it all and for that, I am thankful. Here's a poem I had written for him soon after he left this world:

April 19th(when I found out I was pregnant) what a joyous night;

you filled us with a glamorous light.

As our love continued to grow;

the kicks at midnight we came to know.

Hearing your heartbeat and then the bad news;

we swore no one would ever fill your shoes.

We said many prayers and kept our hopes high;

and started to believe it was all just a lie.

Over the months my belly began to swell;

we wondered boy or girl only time will tell.

At 34 weeks to the hospital we went;

waiting for you many hours we spent.

We felt so many emotions that day;

oh why, oh why couldn't our baby stay?

As we waited anxiously to hear you cry;

we realized we would have to say, "goodbye."

You were a little boy with an angel face;

with which we had a short embrace.

Your chubby cheeks, pouty lips, and head full of hair;

all we could do was hold you and stare.

Though the time was short that we spent together;

in our hearts you will linger forever.

Your mommy and daddy will always hold you dear;

little Conner, our superboy, we wish you were here.

I will always be thankful for the memories of him. They will live in my mind forever. I had written in my last post that one of the most beautiful sights I had ever seen was my husband holding our son. I wanted to share that picture with you:

It's a hard week.

WARNING: This post is probably utterly depressing and has details that may not be advisable for someone not wanting to hear about the loss of a child. Please don't read this if you feel you can't handle reading material that includes my thoughts and feelings during and after my child's birth and death. Thank you.


This week is a horrible week for me, while for others it signifies a time to be thankful, I find myself feeling empty and unsatisfied. Why you may ask? Well as previously posted my grampie passed away right before Thanksgiving in 2004, and two years ago tomorrow I gave birth to and lost my son, Conner. While I am thankful for things and people in my life, I still have the sadness that comes with their absence. I can't believe that Conner would have been two years old tomorrow. I feel myself thinking he should be walking around here getting into everything, starting the terrible twos. How do you get over the fact that you have out lived your child? That your child never got the chance to experience life? I can tell you, you don't get over it. You learn to deal with it, to go on with your life because you know that they would want you to. You try to look forward to the things going on with your other children, but your family never seems whole again. There's always an empty spot at the table, an empty stocking, a picture frame that never gets renewed. But I do thank God for the pictures. That is what I am thankful for today for pictures. That is really all I have left of my baby and a small lock of his beautiful hair. It is comforting because if I ever feel I am losing what he looked like I can pull out his picture and remember. I do remember other things because I remind myself often, with fear of forgetting. How soft his cheek felt, his little wavy sideburns, and the kicks I felt when I was pregnant.

Two years ago today I was in labor, both scared and hopeful. I knew that with him being 6 weeks early his life expectancy was even less than it would have been had he been full term, but a part of me still hoped I would hear that cry. After I gave birth to him and they took him to another room, time stopped. I kept thinking, cry baby cry. But it was silent. I think I knew what had happened but for some reason I thought I can't do this, I can't lose it. I have a husband that's going to need me. I do remember crying but it wasn't like I had imagined myself before it happened. I thought I would get hysterical, go crazy. I instead was rather calm. They handed him to me after he was already gone. I just looked at him and thought he looked like Nick. I noticed Nick was watching me wanting to hold his son so I gave him to him. I laid there and watched them together and thought it was the most beautiful scene I had ever seen. A father with his son. I don't remember much after that, well I do somethings but out of respect for my husband I will leave them out. After we had our time we allowed all of our family members to come in one by one to see him. My aunt said I look like any other proud mother wanting to show off her baby. All I could think was how sorry I was to having to share the terrible news with everyone. I was worried about all of them. I didn't want to worry about myself. Worrying about myself was too scary, it meant it had all happened to me and I wasn't ready to accept that. A while after everyone came in we decided to go down stairs to my room. I knew if I didn't leave right then, then I would never be able to. Although now looking back, I regret leaving my baby with those strangers. I don't know what they did with him. For all I know they put him in a box. I can't thing on that too long. That night passed very slow, I didn't sleep at all. I laid there and watched Nick sleep for hours. I felt so responsible for every one's sadness. I mean I was the one who had carried him for 7 1/2 months, I felt responsible for what happened. I know it was just something that happened. Something I had no control over, but a part of me will always wonder what I could have done to make it better. I know in my heart that Conner is better off in heaven. He never had to deal with the evil in this world, but it doesn't mean I don't miss him. The selfish part of me wishes he was here. I know I will never get over that feeling. Leaving the hospital without my baby was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. It didn't feel right. As sad as I feel and as horrible as it was I would do it all over again. Just to hold him and see his beautiful face was worth all the pain. Tomorrow we will be doing our regular tradition of making him a cake and sending him letters with balloons. I will try to remember to take pictures and post them. Sorry if I seem scattered right now, I just can't explain the feelings cursing through my body. Be thankful for your children they are each and everyone precious.

Grampie, I miss you!

My Grampie, was my mother's father. He was such a sweet and kind man. Although he and my Maw maw fought like cats and dogs, they loved each other very much. Every time I would be on the phone with her he would be yelling in he background, "I love you, little darlin!" He often told me that I should be Miss America, because I was the prettiest girl he had ever seen. He loved all the country music stars. He had a crush on Shania Twain and Faith Hill. He would say to my maw maw, "Look, Jean they are just as pretty as our Jodie!" He loved hunting dogs, sure he took them hunting every once in a while but he mostly just loved the dogs. All he ever wanted to talk about was dogs. My mom and aunts would joke about how he would pat us on our heads like we were dogs. I never knew someone with so much passion for something. He could literally sit for hours telling different stories about how one dog did this and the other did that. So every Christmas I would buy him a dog calendar and something else with a Beagle (they were his favorite) on it. The picture to the right was Christmas 1990 (yes I am holding a beagle stuffed animal). That year he bought all his granddaughters (me included) race car sets. He was so proud of them and we adored them because he had hand picked them himself. He had a tradition of making up boxes for each family at Christmas. He took those old tomato boxes and wrapped them in Christmas paper. Then he filled them with oranges, apples, old fashioned peppermint sticks (you know the melt in our mouth ones), pecans, and other assorted nuts. They were so nice. He loved fruitcake. I think it is horrible, but he loved it so I would always get it for him on his birthday (December 8th). He made the best cornbread ever. Every time I would go to visit them he would make it for me, because I loved it. It would almost melt in your mouth. I know part of his secret was to put a few tablespoons of Mayonnaise in it. I have so many memories of my grandfather. He as I said in my 100 things was the only person in my life to never hurt me in anyway. He thought I could do no wrong. I adored him in return. In the pic to the right he was walking me down the aisle at my wedding rehearsal. Look how proud he was. It warms my heart. Yesterday was 3 years since he passed away and it still breaks my heart. I will never forget him or the print he left on my heart. I miss and love you, grampie, until we meet again.

So yesterday I was thankful for my grandparents. They are and were very special to me.

Christmas movies ROCK!!

Oh my goodness, I hate to admit this but I have never seen "It's a Wonderful Life", I know how can I call myself a fan of Christmas when I haven't watched one of the old classics? (I hear you Sissy and Aunt Sandi, smack my wrist for this one). Well, truth is I have no idea why I have never watched this movie, I know I have seen bits and pieces of it. I know you have read about my complaints of this islands' lack of things to buy, but today I am praising them. Last year they put out a measly 5 Christmas movies that were all crap except for Jack Frost, which I bought. This year they actually stepped up to the plate. They have GOOD movies like The Santa Clause, The Santa Clause 2 (can't wait for the 3rd to come out next week), All I Want for Christmas, and to my astonishment It's a Wonderful Life Collectors Edition. So I swiped it up for $17.95. It includes both the black and white and newly restored versions. So I have a date to watch it this weekend. I know I will love it. What's not to love??? So today I am thankful for Christmas movies because they always have a nice ending. You know they are supposed to teach you the true meaning of Christmas. It's not about the gifts or decor (although the decor is wonderful) but about family and Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior! That my friends is why sing it with me, "It's the most wonderful time of the year!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Selling Christmas cards!

So I am having a Christmas Card Workshop next Saturday night. I ordered 25 sets of 12 cards because I had sent an email out to our entire squadron as advertisement. Well, nobody replied saying they wanted to come so here I am stuck with all these cards. However, I have gotten lucky, which is amazing for me, because my neighbor, Judy, who had a show last night is trying to get them sold for me. She is doing such a good job. She has already sold 5 sets for me. I am so lucky that she is willing to help me so much. I also have about 6 sets that are reserved for Saturday. So God willing I will sell all these sets so I can return the money I took from our savings to do this. So last night was Judy's party. Ten people were in attendance, which is really great, because usually the average is 6 people. Only 3 people have put in orders so far, but some of the others are saying they will be ordering this week. So with only three orders her party is up to $300!! I am so excited so since yesterday was the party and I failed to blog I am going to say I am thankful for my job. I know what a job right? I get to do what I love and make some money. It was really fun teaching the girls how to use the Close to my Heart products last night. They were full of questions and luckily I had answers. I really enjoyed it. I hope that this will be a start to a good business for me. My fingers are crossed. The party closes Wednesday so I will let you know my final tally. Wish me luck!!

Today I am so thankful!

Well I didn't write what I was thankful for yesterday because I was working on my 100th post and it took all my free time. So in order to catch me up I am going to say yesterday I was thankful for comfortable clothes. I know it sounds dumb. But it is wonderful to be able to wear clothes and feel comfortable in them. Remember the old days when women had to wear dresses with corsets? How horrible it must have been. They couldn't breathe and were fainting all over the place. And today I am thankful for feeling my baby move. It is so reassuring in pregnancy when you feel your baby moving around. It gives me a sigh of relief every time like this baby is okay, I don't have to worry. And it's an awesome feeling too!

My 100th post!!!!

I have been waiting on this one for a while now. So I have been coming up with 100 facts about me. Here it goes:



1.My favorite color is purple. I love it!!! I would have to say a close second these days is brown.



2. I have a crush on Paul Walker, he's from Into the Blue, The Fast and the Furious. He's the blond with the pretty blue eyes. He's a good looking man.



3. I have read everyone of Nicholas Sparks books. I loved them all except his book he wrote with his brother about their trip around the world.



4. My parents both have naturally wavy/curly hair, but mine is straight as a board. Go figure!



5. I've had the same best friend, April, since I was 5 years old. We've been friends for almost 22 years now.



6. My favorite animal is the panda bear. They are adorable creatures. My husband took me to see one for the first time when we were dating. I was in awe.



7. I've lived in Florida, North Carolina, Pennsylvania, and now Japan.



8. I watch Christmas movies all year long. I can't get enough of them.



9. I collect willow people, precious moments, pandas, and gingerbread people.



10. I had a brother, Jeremy, that died at 15 weeks and 1 day old, I was 3 at the time.



11. I haven't seen my father since I was 13, but we keep in touch with email.



12. I moved out on my own at the age of 19.



13. I have a bachelor's degree in Health Education.



14. I've been a pool girl, cashier, condo cleaner, hostess, sales girl, teller, bus monitor, and now a Close to my Heart consultant.



15. Both sets of my grandparents stayed married to each other until death did them part.



16. I have been scrapbooking for almost 10 years.



17. I love, love, love brown clothes. I think it's my color. Don't tell me if I am wrong, I will be crushed.



18. As a child I wanted to have a Ferrari like my barbies had. Big dreams for a poor girl.



19. I played barbies until I was 13. Even then I didn't want to give them up, I cried, when I packed them away. No, my mom didn't make me do it. I figured that with High school coming up it was time to quit.



20. I love Tinkerbell!! Well yes my dog, but I meant the fairy. She's so cute with her feisty ways.



21. I have always wanted a belly ring, but never got one. I am way too old for that now!!!



22. I am obsessed with candles. My favorites are apple, cinnamon, and anything holiday scented.



23. My all time favorite show is Dawson's creek. Probably because I watched it as a teenager and I felt I could relate to the characters.



24. I can turn my tongue upside down. Okay so no entirely but mostly. It's cool!



25. My favorite fruit is strawberries. I love them any way I can get them, but fresh ones are the best. Too bad they are $5 a pint here.



26. I hate my handwriting. It is horrible.



27. My favorite holiday is Thanksgiving, for the food of course. Okay so the family gathering too. Okay so really it's Christmas because I serve the same food for both so yeah Christmas is the best one!!



28. If I see someone cry I usually do too. I am a whimp like that.



29. I am jealous of people who never get premenstrual cramps. I have always suffered with those things. They stink!!



30. I don't like rain. It brings my mood down. They only way I can tolerate it is if I am in my pj's with a good book.



31. I 've always wanted a fireplace in my house. I think they are heavenly. The smell, the warmth. Mmmmm I need to live somewhere cold.



32. I wish it was Fall all year long. I would NEVER get tired of it. I am a jeans and sweater kind of girl!



33. I used to have a dog named Perka. She was half German Sheppard, half Husky. She was absolutely beautiful. I miss that dog.



34. As a child I climbed trees and acted like a monkey. I was always in a tree somewhere, ask my mom.



35. I do my Christmas shopping all year long. I love to buy gifts!



36. I eat cold water in my cereal. I know most people think it's gross, but I don't drink milk so I had to find an alternative.



37. I love to watch reality shows like "The Bachelor" and "American Idol" luckily that's the only two I have allowed myself to get into. Idol starts in January, I can't wait!!

38. I like getting my haircut, because it makes me feel refreshed. However a day or two later I usually hate they cut. Figures!

39. I am always tired. I don't know why. I can blame it on pregnancy now but before that I was tired then too. Who knows, maybe I am anemic or something.

40. I already have gray hairs. Yeah, seven of them to be exact. But I have learned to deal with them. I am going to hold out on that whole dyeing my hair thing for a while.

41. Today would have been my original wedding day. We planned on November 15th as our wedding day but with the military stuff we had to move it up. But I am glad we did. November has been an interesting month for us every year.

42. The first time I was ever attracted to my husband he was wearing a black tee shirt and his glasses. I was like, "Hey, he's cute!" I had seen him many times before that but it never clicked.

43. My parents split up a week before my 9th birthday but they didn't get divorced until I was 17 years old.

44. I love that purple/blue stone tanzanite. It is really pretty, but so expensive. I have a few pieces of jewelry with it.

45. I feel better about myself when I am tan. I know it's superficial but I can't help it. It just makes me feel better.

46. I love to veg out sometimes. I love all of it: mud masks, foot scrub, candles, music, and a nice warm bath, with bubbles of course.

47. I don't like flying, which by the way stinks when your family lives across the ocean. Hopefully I will only have to do it a few more times.

48. I never liked people touching my feet until I came to Japan. They get the best pedicures. Seriously if you ever come here you gotta get one.

49. I want all the furniture in my house to be cherry wood. I love it. I just think dark wood looks classy.

50. I can't stand for people to go on about how spoiled my dogs are. They are my dogs and if I want to spoil them I will. Same goes for my children. Sometimes people need to keep their opinions to themselves.

51. I love to bake. Well not all the time, but when I am in the mood to it is so much fun.

52. I have had two miscarriages. The first one I had just found out I was only about 6 weeks along. It made me sad, but it wasn't too terrible because I was still dealing with the loss of my son and I know I wasn't ready for another baby yet. That baby would have been due on Valentine's Day. The second one was way more traumatizing for me. We had been trying to get pregnant for about 7 months. So when we found out I was thrilled. I didn't get to see a doc until I was about 10 weeks. They didn't find a heartbeat. So I had to wait and miscarried at 11 1/2 weeks. It was very terrible and traumatizing. That baby was due this last October on the 4th. I will always remember them.

53. I was born on Eglin Air Force Base in Florida in 1981.

54. I am afraid of sharks, snakes, rats, fire, and flying.

55. I hate seafood. You will never get me to try it ever. I have and it's disgusting.

56. I have major trust issues. I don't trust many people I can name them all on one hand. Seriously.

57. They only person in my life that never hurt my feelings or upset me was my grampie. He passed away 3 years ago this weekend. I miss him!!

58. I love some cherry Coke, that stuff is addicting. I try not to drink it too much. YUM!!

59. All the kids I know call me Jo Jo. It was kind of annoying at first but now I like it. I think it's cute.

60. As a child I would sit Indian style and then get up on my knees and walk with my legs still Indian style sounds weird but I bet I could still do it.

61. I used to love hot chocolate, well I still do, but now I have replaced it will French Vanilla flavored hot chocolate. It is to die for, I drink it all the time.

62. I love to decorate for Christmas. There's nothing better than getting it all out with Christmas music in the background and taking sips from your hot cider or chocolate. It is the best feeling ever.

63. Once I feel a nip in the air I automatically get in a better mood. I don't know what it is. Works every time.

64. I associate some smells with different memories or people. I've heard many people do this, so I can't be too crazy.

65. I ADORE Christmas music. I have many favorites but nothing beats "The Christmas Song". Chestnuts roasting on an open fire, Jack Frost nipping at your nose, tiny tots.... okay so I will stop. I love, love, love that song.

66. I love pictures, which is probably why I am so into scrapbooking. I love them so much that I always want to look at people's albums when I visit them. It's a sickness.

67. My wedding day was so much fun and exciting. I was never nervous, just happy and anxious to be Mrs. Adams.

68. I am dying for a new camera with a huge lens that doesn't take for ever to take a picture. My husband says they are too expensive, but one day he will give in. After all his flat screen wasn't too cheap either.

69. I am so thankful for Vonage. Otherwise we would still be paying out the tail end for international calls with less talking time. Thank you VONAGE!!

70. I was a Daisy and a Brownie in Elementary school. It was fun getting together and helping the community.

71. I went trick or treating the last time when I was 16 years old, but it was for can goods for the homeless. I tell you it was much more rewarding than all that candy.

72. My favorite child's book is called, "Love you, forever." You know the saying, "I love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be." So sweet.

73. I have such long fingers. My hands are the size of my husbands. It is crazy. My great grandmother said I had the hands of a pianist. Sadly, I never learned how to play.

74. I have never smoked a cigarette, not even a puff. I never tried any drugs either. It wasn't my thing.

75. The first time I ever got drunk, I was 18 years old and in college. For some reason this amazes people my age.

76. You know what's great. A cold day with Chili for dinner. It warms you up and makes you feel all cozy inside. I know I keep referring to cold times. I live on a tropical island, I miss cold weather SO bad!!

77. I don't make friends very easily. I used to in school, but things are different now. People aren't as good as you would like to think they are.

78. I can't stand it when my house is a mess. It drives me crazy. I say this as I look around thinking I need to get my butt off the computer and into that bathroom to clean it. AGHHHH!

79. He-man was my hero when I was a child. I thought he was the coolest thing ever. I even played with the action figures.

80. Swimming pools are great. You don't have to worry about anything biting your toes or coming after you.

81. People used to tell me I looked like Katie Holmes before she married that crazy Tom Cruise.

82. I love the new fad with colors mixed with brown. Like pink and brown or light blue and brown. It is so pretty.

83. I don't like writing with pencils. Pens are much better. I even do crosswords in pen. Oh yeah and I do love crosswords. I do them all the time.

84. I've never dated anyone with dark eyes. They always had either green or blue eyes.

85. I think the greatest thing in the world is when you feel your baby kick in pregnancy. I love it so much. This one is very active as far as I can tell. I only feel it a few times a day but it's still so small.

86. I was very lonely growing up as an only child, I missed my brother all the time. I always wished he would have lived. I also wished I had an older brother.

87. I love giving gifts. It gets me excited. I always hope I will get something to make the other person happy.

88. As a child I thought that you had to shave your arms when you got older. I am not sure why. I never saw anyone do it. It was some crazy thing I came up with.

89. When I pictured the person I was going to marry I had a list of things I didn't want like some one in the military, previously married, and no kids. Well, I ate my words and am happy for it.

90. One of my favorite places in the world is in my husband's arms. I feel safe there.

91. My mom and I are closer now than we have ever been. She gets me and I get her. How thankful I am for that.

92. I am terrible at responding to emails. I sometimes take weeks, okay months to reply. I embarrass myself with it.

93. My grandmother (Mawmaw), although she was kind of crazy, was one of my best friends. I still can't get over her passing. I catch myself wanting to call her often. I knew she was there for me no matter what, and always on my side.

94. I am scared to death of being a mother. I don't have a clue how to raise a baby. I mean I guess it comes naturally, right? Let's hope so or I am in for a rude awakening.

95. Roller coasters terrify me. I used to be into that kind of thing, then I matured. Now I am like, "You want me to go make myself sick and possible get hurt on that thing? No way, man I like my feet on the ground!!"

96. When I get angry I keep things in, I have such a hard time talking about how I feel. I sometimes think I am a ticking time bomb. I feel sorry for whoever unleashes that anger.

97. Blogging is a huge release for me. I sometimes need to get things out and it's a great outlet.

98. My new business has me stressing big time. I feel like it is never going to take off. I mean I know you have to spend money out at first in order to get it started. But man am I read for some payback. I have my 2nd party tomorrow night so we will see!!

99. I love the feel of cold sheets when I first get into bed. It feels awesome. I am glad it's almost bed time!!

100. Wow, I made it! I can't believe I am done. So my final thing will have to be how much I love all my family. They are my world, my everything. If I never met another friend and had them by my side I would be content. Thank God for family and REAL friends like April. Without them I would be totally lost. TRULY!

Thank you Kristen!

My friend Kristen is so sweet. She sent me these holiday scents from bath and body works because she knows how much I love them. We don't get the holiday scents here so she went and picked up a sample pack for me last week. I adore the Vanilla Bean Noel and Winter Candy Apple. You have got to smell these people. There's nothing I love more than holiday smells. Speaking of I am in need of some Morenci Christmas candles, eBay here I come!! Oh and she also sent me some chapstick from Victoria's secret that is oh so yummy!!

So sweet!

I adore this picture! It was funny! I looked over and they were all piled up like this. I was happy to have my camera in hand. The little one on the top is our friends daughter Jordin, age 3. My husband, just another kid at play. So I have to catch myself up again on being thankful because last time I tried to post my computer when wacky again. So here goes:

November 11th: I am thankful for childlike qualities in both myself and other adults.

November 12th: I am thankful for our armed forces, without them we wouldn't be safe and free. Thanks to all who serve I include firemen and police in this also.

November 13th: I am thankful for schools and teachers that give our children the ability to learn and knowledge to get them through life a little easier.

She loves birthdays!

Now aren't these pics sweet? She has always loved her birthday. At the age of two she would walk around saying my birthday is bembmer seventh. It was too cute!!

Crazy fights!

Birthday party tomorrow!

Tomorrow we are having Maddy's birthday party at the park. I rented a bouncy boxing ring that everyone is very excited about. I am jealous that I will be unable to participate in the fun, but oh well. I will be the photographer for sure. So I will try to get some pics posted tomorrow night, that is if I have enough energy left after all the festivities. I didn't write what I was thankful for yesterday so let me say my pets. They provide me with so much enjoyment and I adore them. Today I feel thankful for nature. The breeze, the birds chirping, the sunshine, all of it. It is a wonderful and beautiful sight everyday. What a beautiful world God has created for us.

Our trip to the aquarium

This would have been a better view had it not been rainy and cloudy. It is pretty though itsn' it? Her is my love and me, Maddy took the picture. It turned out pretty good, don't you think?
This waterfall was down on the beach it was so pretty, we had to get a pic by it.
Here we all are in front of a statue of a whale shark, they are much bigger than that!

See I told you, look at it compared to all the people. Maddy was surprised too.

Peanut butter, pickles, and cheese!

Okay so not all together, but these are the things I crave. I eat them almost everyday. I eat peanut butter on everything (bread wise) including English muffins, waffles, blueberry bagels, bread, and crackers. I love it!! The pickle thing just started up about two weeks ago. They have to be DILL pickles and that's where the cheese comes in. I always want cheese after I eat pickles. I guess it could have something to do with the way I eat my sandwiches. I eat pickles and cheese on them. I don't know it's crazy. With Conner I craved cheese, lemonade, and bubblegum. Isn't it crazy how your body acts in pregnancy???

Heartburn, yes often!

Some of you wondered about my heartburn. Yes I get it, almost every night. I just thought it meant that I would be having a baby with a lot of hair. I didn't know it meant boy too. I had it terrible with Conner and what do you know he had a head full of beautiful black hair. So we will see. Tums are my friend and they help.

14 weeks today!

See I how much I have grown in 4 weeks. I already feel big, sad but true. I thought a picture may give you a better view of if you think the baby is a girl or a boy. Today I am thankful for this pregnancy. It has been a long hard road to get a healthy pregnancy. So far so good.

Happy Birthday Maddy!

She turned 8 today, to our amazement. It seems like she should still be running around with a sippy cup in hand. She has grown so much and is funny as she can be. We went to the aquarium today, we kept her out of school as a birthday treat. We had a lot of fun. When we got back we ate at Chilli's, where this pic was taken. Today I am thankful for her and for this year we are getting to spend with her. It is quite the adventure.

Our pumpkins

This year my superman pumpkin didn't come out quite as well as last year but it was still cool!
I decided to do a Batgirl pumpkin since Maddy dressed up as her. It was way more challenging than I thought it would be. Geez! But people loved it. Some even took pictures of it.

Poll

Okay so it's time to vote what you think my baby is??? I know Aunt Sandi says girl and Abbie says boy but you guys vote anyway. I personally have no idea. If I had to say I would say it's a boy cause I dreamed that last night but to be honest I don't have a clue. We will see. So go ahead and vote.

Giving Thanks!

Okay so I am behind on my blogging and now I am behind on my giving thanks each day of this month so I am going to catch myself up:

November 1st- I am thankful for the relationship I have with my stepdaughter. Many step- relationships are not good. People don't get along and things can get nasty. I am thankful to have been around since Maddy was 2 years old and we have what I would like to call a special bond.

November 2nd- I am thankful for my husband. I spent a few years in my early adulthood wondering if I would ever meet a man that would love me as I did him. I felt like it wasn't going to happen so I kept myself cut off from dating and relationships. I am glad to have found my soul mate.

November 3rd- I am thankful for my mother. If it weren't for her I wouldn't be here. But not only that but she is always there for me. We have a wonderful relationship. We talk almost daily and she always takes time to listen to me and to give advice.

November 4th- I am thankful for friends. I am talking about TRUE friends. The kind of friend that is always on your side. The kind of friend that you can call after weeks of not talking and you can pick right back up where you left off. The kind of friend that you never have to worry about stabbing you in the back. These kind of friend are few and far between.

November 5th- I am thankful for my home. I am thankful to have a home to live in that has electricity and running water. So many people take this for granted. This isn't something everyone in this world has, it is a privilege and a gift.

November 6th- I am thankful for my religion. Without God I would be totally lost. No I don't attend church very often or try to push my religion on others, but I have no doubts about my relationship with God. He and I have always been solid. Yes I have been angry with him at times, but without him? NEVER!!

It's BATGIRL to the rescue and her little dogs too.

Computer issues!

Well it seems my computer when a little whacko the last few days. Actually I can't blame my computer but my Internet. It was raining and dreary and I guess that messed up my Internet, even my vonage phone had some issues, but luckily that's all over and I can add some fun blogs. I am proud to say I am coming up on my 100th post and I cant' wait to do 100 things about me. I have already begun to write them down in a notebook. Silly me!!